god's favorite sacrificial lamb...

an independent && selective && writing blog for THE DARK URGE.ᴛʀᴀᴜᴍᴀ ; ʀᴇʙᴜɪʟᴅɪɴɢ ʏᴏᴜʀsᴇʟғ ; ɴᴀᴛᴜʀᴇ ᴠs ɴᴜʀᴛᴜʀᴇ ; ᴄᴜʟᴛ ɪɴᴅᴏᴄᴛʀɪɴᴀᴛɪᴏɴ ; ᴛʜᴇ sᴀᴄʀɪғɪᴄᴀʟ ʟᴀᴍʙ ᴛᴜʀɴᴇᴅ ᴘʀᴇᴅᴀᴛᴏʀ ; ᴄʀᴀᴠɪɴɢ ᴀɴᴅ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ; ᴄʜᴀʀɪsᴍᴀᴛɪᴄ ᴍᴜʀᴅᴇʀᴇʀDEAD DOVE DO NOT EAT ; canon relevant triggering concepts, abuse of nearly every kind(towards him, formerly), death, gore, urge and bhaalcest etc.
multiverse && multiship.
written by ophy
( she / her, 30+, cet )

...made for slaughter.

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thornedlamb

  001.   If you’ve read my rules or muses and decided you’re not interested, please feel free to hard-block me! :D
It helps ease my anxiety - I won’t be left wondering whether you just haven’t had time to check my blog yet, or if you’d rather not be mutuals. No hard feelings at all, promise! We can always interact again through a different muse if you’d like. :3
  002.   I adore shipping, but it isn’t the only reason I roleplay. For me, ships grow best through natural interaction, plotting, and genuine chemistry: both in character and out of character. I’m not interested in forcing pairings just for the sake of it; I prefer to see where our muses take each other. That can mean anything from slow-burn dynamics to unexpected connections, and I’m equally happy exploring platonic, familial, or antagonistic bonds alongside romance.  003.   Please note that I do not wish to interact with minors, especially not out of character. For everyone else: as long as you’re respectful of boundaries, you’re welcome here.

  004.   I am selective about what I answer and who I follow back, but my blog is not mutuals-only. If you’d like to send me something even if I don’t follow back, please feel free to do so, I’ll always appreciate the interaction.  005.   This blog WILL contain mature themes, including violence, sexual content, and dark topics. This involves murder, bhaalcest, durgecest, (c)sa(toward him), torture and many other horrible topics. I try to tag everything. More about tagging in 008.  006.   I prefer chronological roleplay over skipping ahead in the storyline, unless plotted or long-term partners.  007.   If one of my muses has an ability that could influence your character or give them information they wouldn’t otherwise know, I’ll always ask first to make sure you’re okay with it. I’d appreciate the same courtesy in return- it keeps things fair and fun for both of us.

  008.   If you’d like me to use a specific tag, just send me an ask or IM :) I usually tag with “TRIGGER //” for easy filtering. My stories can lean dark - especially Sirius is not only a creature of murder but went through many forms of trauma himself.
If you’d rather avoid the heavier themes altogether, you can also filter “dead dove don’t eat.”
  009.   I don’t involve myself in drama. Unless it concerns something serious - such as real-life abuse, grooming of minors, or similar - I’m not interested. Personal dislikes, petty arguments, or “X was mean once” aren’t things I care to engage with here.  010.   I am not my faceclaims, nor am I affiliated with them in any way. Please don’t ever mistake me for the person behind the images. Using a faceclaim for a differently named muse is simply a creative tool - it is not impersonation or identity theft.

rules

Sirius

full name.
also known as.
age.gender.
pronouns.
romantic orientation.
sexual orientation.
species.
occupation.
class.
*

sirius
the dark urge
40+male
he/him
pan
pan
Chthonic Tiefling demi god
verse dependent
Draconic Melee Sorcerer
Deathstalker

character description

Born from the flesh of a god, Sirius was shaped to be the perfect blade of murder - swift, alluring, merciless. Yet before the killer was the child: a heart too warm, too fragile, broken until nothing remained but blood and silence. Once a lamb, now a predator, he longs not for conquest but for the stillness of an ending - his own as much as the world’s.

height.
weight.
build.
dominant hand.
hair.
eyes.
scars.
tattoos.

175cm/5'9 ft
70kg / 154lbs
lithe strength
both
white + chin length + curly
teal flames in snow
burn scar + punishment
around his throat

appearance

features + demeanour

At first glance, Sirius is beautiful, almost ornamental: white curls falling around horns adorned in gold and silk, aquamarine eyes framed by pale lashes, and skin of cool grey with faint blue undertones, dragon-born scales glinting faintly.
Yet the illusion carries edges - burn scars across his cheek, black ink staining his throat like a collar.
He moves with a predator’s patience, each step elegant, measured, deliberate. There is a strange quiet to him, as if he is winter given form, and when he turns his eyes fully upon another, their smooth, unbroken motion feels less than mortal.

attire

Sirius dresses in deliberate contrast, a living vision of extremes. At times he is clad in pure white and gold, radiant and untouchable; at others in black and gold, dark as night with a gleam of decadence. His clothing is tailored close to the body, silk or leather that clings to his form, meant as much to distract with beauty as to allow freedom of motion before the strike. Elegant heeled boots carry him with poise, while golden, ornamental claws sheath each finger - jewelry as much as weapons, a final flourish of menace wrapped in allure.

background

birthplace.
current home.
language(s).mother.
father.
other family members.
pets.

?
Baldur's gate
common, Infernal, Celestialdead
feared gone
enemies
verse dependent

home life

By day, Sirius and his Bhaalists pass as ordinary, even useful, a sect that pays its dues and acts as vigilantes where the law falls short. He himself slips easily into noble houses as a butler, blending into the silence of wealth and service.At night, the Red Rooms welcome the public—decadent stages where sex and slaughter mingle, ritualized for spectacle and coin, no different from the executions once cheered in crowded squares. Yet beneath the city lies the true temple, where devotion is carved into flesh and failure is punished without mercy.
To his followers, Sirius offers warmth, his flesh and blood, and a replica of love, keeping them bound to him with honeyed words and tender hands. From his father, he receives none of what he feigns - only orders, punishment, and the endless demand for blood.
Addicted to violence, desire, and pain, he drifts between lover and victim alike, knowing that the only thing he truly longs for - death - will never be granted to him.

personality

character description

Sirius carries himself with elegance and control, a predator who knows the weight of silence and the power of charm. Manipulation comes easily to him - warmth, tenderness, and even love offered as tools to bind others closer. As he knows how easily even the smalles scrabs of such bind him.Yet beneath the mask, not all of it is false. At rare moments, he remembers how to simply exist: racing across rooftops, breathing the night air, almost free of the weight of blood, expectation and pain of his past.He loves with the same intensity that defines his violence - so fiercely that he refuses to kill those he claims as his own. His love is too selfish to let them go too early.
To his followers, he is both comfort and threat, sweet words laced with hidden teeth. Sirius is broken, bound to his father’s will, but a fragile ember of goodness still glows in him—brief and fleeting, yet undeniably real.

charismatic · graceful · protective · intelligent · alluring · devoted · loyal


secretive · intense · calculating · disciplined · enigmatic · restless


manipulative · violent · obsessive · merciless · self-destructive · addicted

likes

  • animals

  • sex

  • pie

dislikes

  • chaos

  • hypocritical goodness

  • himself

hobbies

  • ???

  • sex

  • murder

phobias

  • life

  • his father

  • failure

dreams

  • freedom

  • death

  • love

backstory

  was I sweet once?   Once, he was a sweet child - a gift left on the doorstep of two tieflings in the lower city of Baldur’s Gate, and loved from the very first moment they saw him. Mischievous and quick, he was the fastest of his friends and soon their leader, never chosen to be “It” again when they played catch. He climbed higher, laughed louder, and carried warmth wherever he went, even if luxuries were scarce. And to tie it all together, there was a loyal dog at his side, his best friend. A truly blessed child...

  what have I done?   Oh. No. No! Blood... Blood everywhere! Why? WHY? They kissed me good night... loved me. Why? Why? Why? HELP, someone, Please!

  princeling.   A butler reached out his hand while the boy sat in the blood of his loved ones. Beside him a priest in black, towering and dreadful, knelt low and whispered that he was chosen—that this was his path to godhood, that what had been done was right. Sweet words, cold eyes. A mind already fracturing clung to both: to the servant’s steady hand and to the heavy crown forced upon his head. Then he was taken below, six feet under, into the temple that would rule him, until the day he'd learn to rule them.

  how to make a monster.   Take everything, autonomy, love, warmth. forge a child into a tool, a weapon. make it feed his own blood to the followers, allow them to swallow their messiah's flesh.
Let young hands choke the friends he once played with. Turn the body into a puppet. make any sweetness a punishing offense. and reluctance to kill... oh if he was not willing to kill the rotten world, the rotten world would touch him endlessly...

  monster.   Oh, how beautiful. Silence. Finally. They kissed and touched me the last time. Blood, Blood everywhere... how beautiful.

  anew.   He could only kill the lowest of those that harmed him, but the rivers of blood grew that night, when his heart, finally, entirely shattered. And all he could do was curse the world, every living thing.
He could not escape his head, his blood, his fate… unless… unless everything else died.
Ah… he finally understood his father.
And so, he stepped fully into his role, the crown now worn with pride, his beauty a weapon, not a punishment anymore.

  deathstalker.   He walked the path toward becoming a Deathstalker, one of Bhaal’s most blessed assassins. The trials he mastered with precision—save for the last, when his final victim survived. For that failure, he was punished: his face thrust into the flames, scarred, though by his father’s design the marks remained only as decoration, something to draw the eye in curiosity rather than turn it away in disgust. A new victim was offered, killed without mercy, and from that moment his aging ceased, his body frozen in time as he embraced the dark powers bestowed upon him.  chosen.   He serves his father well—spilling blood, offering his body for contracts, or both when required. Yet in the spaces between, he follows his own designs: seeking out another Chosen to claim control at his side, drowning the endless screaming in his head beneath a carousel of lovers’ hands, and grasping at the smallest shred of choice. If that choice is to give himself away without command, then it is still his. His performances in the Red Rooms are the most sought after, and in his guise as butler he is counted among the most skilled and desired.
And oh, there is a new crown in his grasp, that makes even the hells now interested in him...
But the world may yet have other plans for him.

physical health.
mental health.
mbti.
enneagram.
moral alignment.
archetype.

peak
the worst
estj
The Aristocrat (4w3)
lawful evil /chaotic good
the fallen innocent

religion.
education.
addiction.

bhaalist blog relevant lore
high
murder and sex

a child weaned on poison considers harm a comfort.

extras

one

bg3 · 40+ · low activity


  game plot.   he remembers nothing but his name and endless gore. What starts out as struggling against something that tries to control him, out of sheer thickheadedness, becomes his path to redemption... or to embrace what he can not change.

  the dark urge.   the time he is bhaal's chosen in baldur's gate. He might be hired as a butler, so he can spy. Control the temple in secret, or be seen in the red rooms in baldur's gate where he kills criminals with such allure that he takes hearts and coind away.

two

bg3 · 21-40+ · active


three

d&d · 21-40+ · active


  bloody gate.   Variation from TWO: In this, he is only known to most as the beautiful and pure high priest cleric of the Bhaalist Temple, where they act as if they and their god had taken a new turn. They claim not to harm more than is needed to keep the world healthy. Dressed in white, he is usually more demure and soft-spoken, often found in high society circles. He might still follow someone into a rich bedroom, but with limits. That he is actually plotting the end of the entire world, and that the Bhaalists still follow their old ways and bow to him, is a secret kept from most.

  post game.   idk yet

four

fandom · age range · status


one

modern faerun · 21-40+ · status


  modern.   In a modern form of D&D, gods are rare, technology is everywhere, and clerics are seldom able to heal anymore. Sirius was born into a dark cult built on exploitation—yet unlike most, he possesses the true gift of healing. His father, the cult leader, twists this ability into another means of control, parading Sirius as proof of their divine favor. Even so, the song of blood still calls to him, and he remains a killer at heart. Yet it is most often his “sister,” Orin, who acts as the blade in the dark, while Sirius walks the line between healer and predator.

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